Hey ya'll, well this is somekind of wierd to say the
least I wanted to put one of these up as I think I
kinda like it, however one is enough, don't ask me
what the heck I did wrong as the sign says I am a
blonde and by golly I sure is gonna use it for all I can especially when it posts a dozen instead of the
one I hit ooops I did it again,and heck nope not for all the money in the world would I wanna be of
any relation to miss britney, especially after the well much unneeded media attention she has been
receiving but I always did use the term ooops, as a matter of a fact when I was still driving a semi, my co-driver used to freak, as I had this habit say I happen to drop a cd,ok oops would be the word of choice, well, lets say alittle bitty car got well too close for lack of a better word, oops would again be my choice of words lmbo...... so you see my point or do ya....anyhow I was so
very down as my husband who I told you I do adore is not well for lack of a better term nice
infact he is being just as mean as he possibly can, he knows this is really good soul medicine for me as everyone needs to vent, well he has now decided nope don't need this anymore either, I had alot of friends, I do mean awhole lot, from the state of California, to Minn, to KY and also several others, in Canada I had several friends in Calgary, BC, TO, and even in Mtl,now since we have been together I don't even have one single friend I can pickup the phone and call, you know its strange as many friends or past friends said this was being done purposelly I didn't see it,well now I see alot perhaps more than I wish to as it really does hurt, alot more than I care to admit,oh welll live and learn, I won't allow him to make me loose my cyber friends as without you all I surely would go insane, I am seriouslly thinking of taking my behind back to AB in the beginning of Feb and seeing if perhaps I can get into a woman's shelter and hopefully get some help,if I don't I know I will loose anyand all of the little bit of
self esteem that I do have left, well now that he is awake which is why I am not a happy camper just enjoying anylonger I shall go for awhile hopefully he will go back to sleep soooner than later, God forgive me, I need You now more than ever, God Bless ALl, nobody who might be in a similar situation follow my example as it is the wrong one, thats a fact, I live in fear, also my health is very bad, he knows my heart is not good, h e will make a point of making sure I get upset so he can bitch about the fact I need my nitro, sorry this is wrong I didnt start this for a place to complain it is to heal, cya later love to all!! carolexo
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